For nobody else, gave me a thrill - with all your faults, i love you still.
It had to be you, wonderful you, it had to be you.

i hate you
and this time, i mean it

"Oh God," she cried. "Please make him appear."
she thought for a while and prayed again.
"Never mind God," she smiled, "I won't die without him. All i need is You and Your love to sustain me."

i don't care if you don't help me
it's not like i'll die

again, for don't know how many consecutive days i'll be having instant noodles for meal time/dinner and lunch..
saying that camp food sucks doesn't do any justice to what i'll be having, again..
i remembered telling my mum that i like instant noodles but is she giving me what i love most for almost every meal?
eww i'm starting to feel nausea when i eat them..
the aftermath is like someone is punching my stomach from inside
that bad
the one i ate for lunch kept wanting to crawl out of my stomach and it's disgusting

my mum suggested to eat out
but whats the use of eating out when i'll be eating alone again?
she just does the payment and i have to sit there like an idiot and eat
no wonder why i downgrade to half a braincell

i've been back for two days and am still tired..

2nd sept
we reached kota tingi, malaysia with my e and amath homework..
i didn't have time to stuff them into the locker..
the tent was a major jaw dropper.. it was amazingly low..
there was gazillion and one times infinity amount of flies and ants each

wet water activities were on the first day and our first activity was jetty jump - my personal fav.. you run and jump into the water for 3 times
1- jump normally
2 - jump with oli
3 - somersault and drop.. i landed on my side
it was awesome!!!!! even though the water seemed brown-ie and stuff
then more obstacle courses
i need to have more trust in my friends and myself..
and in the end, i think i achieved that (:

plus the tents, it condenses inside..
weird eh?
4th sept
the hike
the crazily insanely long and tiring and murderous hike
but the Maggie-mee cooked on the mountain with sausages and baked beans were awesome!!
i never thought Maggie-mee and baked beans could actually go well with each other.. or maybe like my bro said, i was hungry after a long walk/climb
after lunch, we had to climb this rock wall.. something like rock climbing just not as safe..
i was thinking how was i going to climb down that thing but still proceeded up at around 2-3 pm..
and we descended at around 6.55 to 7.15 pm?
plus, i was sick.. headache due to the pressure i think..
and every other joint and muscle ached like crazy..
and i can't give up, though i kept saying i can't do it anymore
what can i do? camp on the mountain with leeches and giant ants? NOPE
so i prayed in my heart for God to give me the strength to carry on..
praise the LORD, i made it down, the next day..

4th sept
packed bags and went home..
NO MORE CONDENSED TENTS
NO MORE SQUEEZY PLATFORMS
NO MORE INSECTS, SPIDERS AND LEECHES
had lunch and bathed at tes' house before cutting my hair..

i would like to thank all my friends that helped me along..
rachel, sharon and amariah that kept going "jia you"
the boys and gb girls that helped us with the backpacks
sharmie that taught me how to slide down huge rocks..
** plus she crossed her heart and told me that she'd catch me when i fall, or i made her cross her heart but the promise was kind of on her own accord..
janelle whom held on to my hand when i needed her there..
and the many many instructors and teachers that were there along the way.. (: