For nobody else, gave me a thrill - with all your faults, i love you still.
It had to be you, wonderful you, it had to be you.

congratulate me for my very first underline in my report book..
amath sucks
plus i got the lowest in class for english..
it just wasn't fair, it wasn't at all..
of course, if i hadn't done the extra draft, which i'm so used to doing, i would've scored higher
but it was not that that was unfair..
it's just that it's so unfair..
i can't exactly type it out here and be a totally ass and tell on that person..
the teacher allowed it, but i couldn't just let it in..
sure, she has been smart, always
but this was definitely cheating and now she's the goody student that listens to the teacher and i'm the bad student that won't heed advices..
fine! sue me
at least i had the integrity to stop writing when the time's up..
at least i know where i went wrong, i'll just learn from my mistake.. through the hard and rock road..
i'm not pissed at her, i'm just pissed at myself.. pissed that i couldn't do any better.. pissed that i am so so so stupid..
hmph whatever

today after drama, tessa shawn anis and i went to mac
after anis left, the three of us started talking about really random stuff
more of shawn's unofficial ex-girlfriend..
he doesn't even know if they broke up or not
and then he started going about texting so much that his unlimited sms was not able to work anymore, or something like that..
then, i was sipping on the melted ice in my cup and when i heard it, i kind of spitted it out in that really dramatic way..
and as i was facing shawn, part of it went on him..
the funny thing was that he said he's used to it..
i mean who gets used to being spit on? oh yeah, shawn..
and another thing was that i've been trying to do it on purpose, learning it from my bro so it'll come out in vapour like droplets and was never able to do it..
then, not on purpose, i did it..
it was like really really cool..
and even though i kinda apologised for it, i was laughing..
but i was serious about the sorry thing

yes!
i managed to clean the toilet faster than the brothers!!!!!
of course, they were too dumb to know, i received help..
according to tessa, that was cheating
but so? it was still way faster..
in fact, it was so fast, they didn't believe!
and the brothers seemed somewhat afraid of entering the female toilet?
hmm

life seems so lifeless and empty, when it starts to get meaningful, some other things juts rob the memories away..
just when somethings lift us up, other make us sink deeper than the ocean bed..
and when you thought everything was too good to be true, that everything was going according to plan, just when you start to take things for granted, everything goes and disappears..
it's like holding on to the thread of life, it just might break anytime

when a harmless word makes you tear,
a hopeless question suffocates you
a meaningless answer kills you
you know it's just the beginning of an end

sometimes i feel like going to the extreme because things just seemed so ridiculous and stupid
plus, no one understands..
it's the circumstances in life that drives people to the extreme
it wasn't just any one's fault to begin with