For nobody else, gave me a thrill - with all your faults, i love you still.
It had to be you, wonderful you, it had to be you.

Made a facebook account..
XR made it in my name!!!!!!!!!
haha.. now she's at camp..

Went to exercise with SunXin these few days..
yay!!! finally lose weight.. haha.. because i ran more today..
i guess if i continue to do it, i'll definitely reach my goal.. YES!!!
but everyone say i'm not fat..
NVM.. i shouldn't give up half-way..

Suen say that clara suen are going out on 7th November.. suen just asked me along.. cool..
going bugis..

now doing nothing much.. Holiday life sucks big time when there is HOMEWORK!!!!!!!!!!!!
disgusting..

Had drama today and was late..but not very but just in time to do some warm-ups..
Ben and noel sabotaged me.. both gays..

anyway, after pestering LaoShi for a very long while, we went to Novena after being left behind by ben..
Found the tuition centre, Jh and XR kept wanting to see my phone..
then later went to KFC to eat..
Saw their senior LY..
talked for quite a long time..
And she got freaked out more and more because she said that i look like this 4 Love girl, cherie.. i don't think so right? weird..
Bought foolscape!!! finally can start to do homework.. haha

Song of the day : Can i have this dance by HSM3

Went out with mum today..
was so pissed with her.. she said i was fat..
whatever.. first thing i heard in the day.. "hey, you're so fat"
whatever.. should have went out with LZ instead.. at least she won't piss me off..
Then went to orchard.. on the bus, we were disussing about my bro's O levels..
I bet that he's going to get at least 20 points.. didn't know mum was worse, at least 25..

bought some stuff.. so throughout the whole day, she was pissing and unpissing me off..
what a pissed day..
whatever.. she just nagged again..
blah blah blah.. boring.. hate her.. arrgh

I'm starting to miss people from our class..
sigh..

zhang family
I'm starting to miss you guys.. YES
Jiahui!!: Yes, we became friends in math class.. coz index number.. hmm.. and you're a great sister/friend/whatever!!! haha.. i let you guess many things and your stupid instinct is ALWAYS RIGHT!!!! drag it.. anyway, next time got more update on that, you tell me and i tell you.. haha.. thn got anything i PESTER you like hell!! haha
Weilin!!: haha.. so fun and nice talking to you.. very shocked you cried.. oh wells, ho don't miss this class? anyway, you're a very nice listening ear.. shoulder also very comfy to lean on.. haha thanks for your shoulder anyway..
Xinyi!!: haah.. everyday also sa jiao with you.. very fun.. make the others so frustrated and disgusted.. You are always playing PSP or audi.. haha.. but very hardworking.. FIRST!!!!!!! haha.. PS you are very nice to hug, seriously..
LaoZi!!zirui: EUGENE SAYS HE CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT YOU!!! HE LOVES YOU!!! you take people's words to seriously.. really.. don't tense up so much, yeah? anyway, if you want to know if he likes you or not, ask him yourself!! (like you dare) anyway, so going to miss you.. already am anyway, and remember to miss me too, okay? haha
XINRUI(THE HUSBAND): XR!!! it would be so much better of you're not a cannibal(people that eat human meat).. you're teeth have proven to live up to it's name.. haha.. i'm missing you but you don't allow anyone to hug you.. *sigh* don't cry already okay?? we will always be there for you(:

Minyan: Though not really that close to you, but i know you like ANIME!! like who don't? haha, anyway, congrats on getting into MS!!!! haha, it's a really cool subject.. i heard.. nice..
GuanGuan(yuguan): Love you alot!!!!! you always say i'm cute blah blah blah.. haha i very drama right?werid.. GOODLUCK on your appeal!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you can do it okay? don't be so sad.. cheer up and yay!!!! Don't keep saying you screwed up.. MUST BE POSITIVE!! (even though i'm not)
Huiyee/Mingli/Nurul/Olivia: You guys are like so funny and cute.. haha.. HY's hairstyle is ever changing, Mingli can be funny.. and scary.. Nurul is soooooo cute!!!!!!!!!!!! and very friendly.. LOVABLE.. Olivia is super talented in acting!!! and she's very funny.. see you in drama soon.. haha
Deb/Nurliyana/Rabi: You three have differents personalities.. Deb is more of a quiet person but can really communicate well with people she's close to, Liyana and Rabi are like forever together talking about rockstars and stuff.. cool eh? and I'm SO not hannah montana..
Murphy: i guess you're right about the personality change and stuff.. so that was why we drifted apart.. I hope next time when we pass each other along the corridoor, we could still say hi to each other.. anyway, congrats for your triple science..
Caifang: You can be really paranoid at stuff you know? You must really learn to relax.. don't be so tense like LZ!! now ypou're in MS so don't keep looking down on yourself saying that you won't make it
LUGI!!: Tessa.. you're still a stick..haha and everyone is telling you that.. together for 8 years with OLI and LZ.. kinda sad we're all going seperate ways, again.. but still can see you on SAT!!! Y.E.S camp and YES!!!! i can go!!!!!!!! hope to get same room as you.. and not the scary spooky room.. eww

Amos: You are right, i will miss you, and everyone.. haha.. you've been a really good friend to me.. and please don't turn the cube so fast.. i could barely see a thing!! and you promise you'll say hi and whatever
Brendan/Hanafi/Dom/Ben: Darrel lenny/GabLi/FengRui/Hojun/Wenyeh/Alfred: Brendan, used to call him brenda ho.. haha.. so funny.. Hanafi, suddenly say wanna "stead" with XR, i was shock!! Dom and Ben, though not close to you guys but you still have made changes in my life.. somehow.. WISH YOU GUYS ALL THE BEST!!!!everyone here!! i barely talked to you guys but you guys seriously rock!!! (i don't know why gab li rock but who cares) some of you guys are PSP addicts others just love to look around.. FRui love to go around and disturb girls.. random!!!!
GabChuan:I was seriously shock when you said you were you online.. you're so different!! you refuse to talk to any girls in real life and online, you're a super vulgar person!!! you gave me cool ideas for my art project and thanks, it helps.. I would miss your cute little actions.. sicne you're so bold online.. by the way, you reminded me about you connecting th live and earth wire which caused the whole room to blackout.. so much for physics yeah? haha
DarrenOng: Listen well and good! I wouldn't be forever letting you discrimainate.. i'll show you that i can do it, like solving a cube and skipping.. i can and i will learn from where i am and i will stand up.. well, other than discriminating others, insulting others, acting all weirdly when with WL(sorry WL), trying too hard to be cool/fit in, he's a really nice guy..
Jared: Jared used to be really really irritating.. I never thought you were such a nice person.. patiently teaching me how to solve a cube.. even though you would pretend to be fed up, you still teach me.. thanks SHI FU.. (going to cry now)
EugeneNg: You are really nice person, that likes ZR!!! that day must listen to her voice then willing to go hom eh? then heard that you asked someone if she really like you?? hmm.. haha.. thanks for teaching me to solve the cube.. and i would appreciate if you would stop flicking my face..
Jiale: You are really generous.. but stop asking bryan to flick me.. haha.. you're a really nice person but stop smirking when you hear A-N-T can? it seems like you love ants pretty much.. haha
Noel: though i might be mean to him, he's still quite a nice perosn, not like what benedict said.. still, he's more suitable to act as gay..
Eugene/OJP/samuel: not really close to you guys.. but i guess cause of you guys, the class have been really livle, so thanks.. and sam, thanks for trying to fix my com problem and math.. com problem is stupid.. can't seem to find a cure..

not from 2 peace
Clara: you're leaving.. i have so many feelings inside my heart i don;t know how to express.. you can say i'm dumb or whatever, but i hope you feel that no one wants you to leave..
PS please remember us..
PPS please do some back on holidays
PPPS please return to singapore for good..
PPPPS please don't go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Suen: you have been there for me alot throughout these period with clara.. even though you guys kept calling me dumb and stupid, i know you guys do care.. i am sure going to miss you because your mum would not allow you to go.. anyway, GOOD LUCK IN WHATEVER YOU DO, don't keep looking down on yourself.. you can do it!!!


anyways, good luck in whatever you guys do..

Yes!!!
Finally i get to watch a movie on its premiere date.. there was a huge crowd.. really huge
It's quite nice although JL said it was predictable.. the songs are nice.. haha..
But it's really really really cold.. my legs felt like they were freezing and my fingers felt like they were ice water.. my whole body was like in a really really cold place..
but it's okay.. the "show" in HSM was very very nice.. LOTS of props used and it was magnificent!!! not really.. just a little exaggerated, but it was alot of work.. haha
it was funny.. anyway..

went to arcade to look around..
later we were fussing where to go..
So sat in KFC for a while then went to Mac to get MUD PIE MCflurry..
Then went to bubble tea there to sit.. never play..
Eugene acted as DOM and i think Wl and LZ fell for it.. haha eugene is random..
then i smsed LZ and she called JL.. haha.. said that eugene miss her alot and
HE WAS LIKE TROY AND SHE WAS GABRIELLA!!!!!
haha.. JH.. nice idea.. and she kinda thought that eugene thought of it.. haha
after LZ hung up.. eugene then left for home.. it seems like he's waititng for LZ to hang up then he's willing to leave.. haha..
then his little boy came along and blah blah blah..

Later went back to J8.. got popcorn chicken for dinner.. (not a healthy and appropriate one though)
then took bus home..
XR messaged me.. LZ called me to ask if eugene really missed her..
wow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Drag it..
i cried today again when i saw oli crying.. it's so saddening..
hugged almost every female classmate today..
very very sad.. didn't really expect some of them to cry.. very very shock!!!

later after weilin went home, XR JH and i went to the 3rd level playground.. took some very zilian pictures.. weird.. haha.. all with XR..
then we headed to food junction coz the drizzle was getting heavier..
took some pictures..
taken from XR's cam haha.. weird..

Then when we were about to go home, we saw DeDeDe at the money changer then we were all it's him it's him.. only XR was the blur one this time..

Then we stalked him back to the food court..
XR wanted to confess but she didn't have courage.. JH went home first..
So later we were like inside the Popular coz he was inside SEMBAWANG then XR was not sure if she should tell and wanted me to say on her behalf..
I didn't so we continue to follow him behind..
XR was positive he saw us so he quicken his steps and we lost him..
So we went to the bus top near MRT station because he might be there..
Indeed he was and his back was facing us..
I guess we spook too loudly that he actually heard us..
So every time XR ask me to tell him and i take a step forward, he takes 2 steps forward too..
so he was like kinda avoiding us..
Because it was very very obvious that he could hear us..
Then XR gave up so we crossed the bridge to the opp bus stop..
When we board the 55, we saw him boarding the 156..

XR said we might have misunderstood him..
But then i mentioned that 156 did come before..
But still, XR mentioned that he might have some unknown reason why he did that..

Now i'm really scared XR might do something unexpected..

I'm quite happy..
Maybe not.. but at least i still got what i appealed for.. so weeeeeeeeeeeee
We waited for like 4 hours for the results..
then we had to run in the rain..
the "ZHANGS" have to..
Then i got WL into trouble with XR..

when they pinned it up, we were all crowding around and i managed to see something i think was mine.. it showed that i didn't make it for ADDITIONAL MATHEMATICS.. i was really sad so i went to take the appeal form..
later when i came out, WL told me that i'm taking ADDITIONAL MATHEMATICS and PURE SCIENCE so i was like "AH!!!!!!!!!!!" in my mind then i hugged Wl and cried..
Not because i'm sad.. I'm just overjoyed.. people taught i was too sad.. nah..
Just not sure if i should opt for another humanities subject with social studies..
Jared would be very happy with his results..

sigh..
XR saw DeDeDe!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
He asked how was XR's result.. which was quite nice of him..
Then after i bought dinner, we went to quene for the bus then XR and i saw him at the same time.. we ran out of the line and waited to greet him..
he was on the phone and we were so in a rush that we didn't really see his phone..
we waved and he mouthed "bye" and smiled..
haha.. XR's mesmerised!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
She think it's co-incidence/fate.. because we could have missed seeing him if an event didn't take place or whatever..

not the auditions were fine..
My cantonese is seriously horrible.. or not.. but it is anyway..
Benedict's cantonese was great all along.. then today he didn't say as fast.. but it was still way way better than mine..
We made leon low lose his appetite to eat when he "discussed" about how gay bisexual is he.. maybe my topic for the drama thing is BISEXUALITY!!! cool..

They really changed ms ros..
oh wells..
anyways, the drama lesson today is quite... boring??
Not sure if it's only me feeling so..
i didn't know what character to do.. so just randomly came out with BUGS BUNNY..
Love bugs.. cute.. and funny.. and smart.. and quick-witted.. and i'm repeating myself..
Okay.. the way i hopped is not really good..

XR said JH wants to tell me something while LZ called me thrice..
JH reason is better kept unknown..
LZ just wanted to go home with me.. lame!!!!!!!!!
Went to mac and when we're on the bus, saw Benedict and SunXin.. Ben saw us but SX was still concentrating on the road.. how serious..

Saw suen, clara and peishi at mac.. sat with them..
The person that made the sundae first messed it up so they threw the whole thing away.. what a waste of food..
Then CF came and we talked about subjects.. again.. haha

today is EMO Day..
everyone is emo today..
CLARA : cried because today might be her last dday for DRAMA.. CLARA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (CRIES)
XR: DeDeDe is leaving for half a yr.. sad eh?
SX : actually i'm not so sure why.. just know it's something about friends.. well she helped me too.. she gave me motivation and suggestions.. she also walked me home.. HOW SWEET!!!!!!

stupid bloody asshole!!! like i didn't do anything to you right? i didn't make you do anything for me or something, who told you to wait outside? who told you to be dumb enough to tell other people and let me know.. so now you're hating me for?? you're just being dumb alright.. stupidly idiotically dumb.. **** off!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Took some of XR's ZILIAN pictures..

(act shock!!!) ( blur?????) (smile!!!!) (act pitiful!!!) ("angry") div>

I forgot to let my mum sign my option form!!!!!!
she said i could just write her name.. so phew..
I was so nervous for the subject combination choosing.. I'm afraid of making the wrong choice.. So CF swap places for my D&T and Media Studies.. I'm still afraid.. sigh.. I guess i have to wait till WED!!! to know the results.. meanwhile, getting ready to appeal..

Went to do this survey thing about the school..
Some REALLY SENSITIVE stuff we just put: NOT APPLICABLE
So it's we're giving our truthful comments..
One question asked if we like singapore..
"YES"!!!!! for show only???

AUDITIONS ARE TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I can't really believe it..
anyways, i know i can't get in so.. that makes me less nervous.. but i'll just try my very best..
So even if i really don't get in, at least i know i tried my best and didn't let myself down..
smiles!!!



I was chatting with Yuguan on msn and found out the wonderful times we had with each other..
The LA skit and all.. the fun times we had together..
at the nicknames we created for each other..
Would we remember for life?
Would we remember that we were once together as classmates?
Would be still remain as friends?
Most probably yes..
I hope that we could still remember each other even after a long long time..
I would never want to forget the times.. it's really sad.. it would make a person cry.. i mean i almost cried.. again.. too touched..
Even though holidays are a good thing, but i'm really really sad..
sigh.. this is life.. sigh..

Yay!!!!!!!!!!!
Mummy got me a new book "Every Boy's Got One"..
Lucky she HAVE YET TO ask me for money.. phew.. smiles..
It's nice so far..
I decided to buy the book cause i'm tired of sick books.. now whenever i see/read a sick book, my head will have a splitting headache.. (tessa knows) I wanted to buy >"The Scarlet Letter" but the conversations are done in the language Shakespeare uses.. so maybe I'll get that some other day when i get older.. Tessa said that she'll help me find >"For One More Day".. Hope she finds it..

Subjects:
I don't know what to choose now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! suddenly tessa said that maybe i should take Media studies.. Because the jobs that taking Media studies provide is what i'm interested in.. but being incline in that doesn't really make a big deal in Singapore.. unless we get talent scouted and got a chance to excel in USA..
But it's really interesting.. but i'm not sure if i am able to cope with it.. most of it we have to do it individually.. i am afraid i'm not up to it.. but I guess i have to leave it all to the LORD and the people HE sent to talk to me..

LORD:
Choosing my subjects have been a gruelling process for me.. i kept changing my mind about the subjects i want to do.. Because for one - i'm not confident with myself.. i'm never really confident because whenever i am, i fail to do things right.. so Lord, please tell me what subjects do you want me to do.. Please show it to me clearly because i'm very slow at reading signs.. so Lord, please help me and tell me what subjects you want me to study and i will listen.. Lord, please be my inner voice and tell me what to do.. Lord, whatever you tell me to, I will listen to you and i will obey your commands.. So Lord, please help me.
In Jesus name i pray in, AMEN..

Thank you everyone who comforted me..

Miss nah was comforting me too.. some point in time i couldn't speak..
1) I can't cause I'm crying so hard
2) I might just burst out again.. ZR might use SOMETHING to dry my tears.. (sick)
When she said you can cry now then later calm down to think about what subs,
I turn to WL(she was on my left), laid on her shoulder and cried my heart out..
What they said was right.. I was crying during english lesson like crazy and crying when results were out even crazier..
The worst i ever did in school history..
Miss nah(and others) is/are right.. it's not the end of the world.. it's not Os..
As long as i try really really really hard(easier said than done) i will do well despite what i take..

I feel much better now..
I hope so.. I'll try to appeal..
Asked Mr ong.. XR jared and i were like asking him a million and one questions that made him super frustrated.. Haha.. but his words really enlightened me.. So maybe i should test out.. try my luck or whatever..

Miss Wong said that i can take English Lit if i don't take Media Studies..
She said i can take.. but i'm not really sure if i should..
Cause Lit might be pretty difficult for me.. as i'm not those "LOOK-INTO-DETAIL" kinda person.. it might be too profound for me..
Not sure..
If should choose a sub that i interest in or would get me good grades..
Lit i got this is cause I studied real hard..

I'm really confused..
Mr ong said if i try out for 8 subs and i make it, it's final..
No more changes.. i used to be very confirm that i really want 8 subs..
But not i'm in the middle of 7 & 8 subs (literally!!!!!) i really doubt my ability to do well..
I really suck..
I'm so disappointed with myself.. I'm so useless and stupid.. I can't even get/do the subjects i want and have to appeal for it..
This is the result of being dumb and stupid..

i really believe i'm a pig now..
A dumb one indeed..

AMOS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
as what you requested.. to just put your name..
reminds me of XR.. she used to say "Never say my name"/"don't have my name"
werid.. anyway.. delicated to you.. weird eh..
"I'm going to post the word "amos" cause he asked me to. "amos" " (taken from msn window)

Went to the Folks' gathering area to serve them..

It was fun!

We saw Mrs Teo(home econs teacher)'s someone-related-by-somehow then took a few pictures..

There's this super cute boy, Wong JiaWei, super cute.. whenever we take a picture he would also come and look but refused to take a picture with us.. Later Gab Chuan told him that we're bad people and must not talk to us.. but he still did.. (:

Miss Nah said that he's chinese is better than samuel's.. That boy's only 10 years old.. (embarrassing)

I wanted Miss Nah to listen to XR's singing but too bad she didn't get to hear.. She commented that XR have a strong voice.. But XR doesn't want the comments to be coming from her...



Later went back to school, I was so tired of being laughed at, i went to take down the steps for the Rubik's Cube.. WL and the others say I am too serious about it.. haha

They call me stupid big pig..
But actually they meant Clever Pig!!!!!

haha..
NVM..

Later go J8 the 3rd floor outdoor stage there then because at the basement there said something I'm not suppose to, Wl asked XR to pour water on me..

So my whole back was wet and it went transparent.. They all laughed like crazy then i carried my bag in a weird way that would cover my back..
(More embarrassing)

Changed into PE shirt to avoid awkwardness....
Phew..

I have been doing that in-the-middle thing for more than the number of times i wished too..


YAY!!!!!!!!!
Amos just got me my first and very own RUBIK'S CUBE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yes.. the sums he gave me to do were all done before but i just couldn't not remember..
later Jared kill me.. YEEKS!!!!

YAY!!!
watched CONNECTED today cause the time slot for MAMAMIA! THE MOVIE isn't really suitable for us..
It was really really really funny..
Not funny, but we were kinda sadistic when the cars crashed and the pepsi part..
I laughed like crazy.. some parts was little violent then laozi kept grabbing my hand..
It was funny..

Went to the playground and took some pics.. like family portraits.. the slides are hot and it feels like our butts are burning.. but tolerate a little for the photos..
some of them:


XR looked very bored.. haha


love ZHANGS


Today meeeting the ZHANGS
watching a movie..
XR woke up at 5 and started singing.. she finally completed a song.. YIPPEEEEEEEE


XR ZILIAN KUANG!!!!!!!!!!!!!



FINALLY the exams are officially over..
But the tension would not go away until the results are back..

Today XR bought her laptop to school..
Then we were looking at some pics..
teachers kept looking at her laptop..
Then we were 'looking at the plain screen'..
Went to KFC then Xr kept looking into the mirror.. she said that her refection was speaking.. freaky.. then JH took pics of her.. cute and nice and funny..
btw : XR very very very very very ZILIAN!!!!

later went to the 3rd floor playground there and played..
really random.. then took a number of very random pictures..
did lots of weird stuff.. but normal..

TMR:
going out with the ZHANGS
YIPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Song Of The Day : Love story by Taylor Swift

OK..
Update..
the end..

exam stress..
my phone is failing on me..
my brain is failing on me..
the days are failing on me..

one gone.. four to go..

JIAYOU PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!! (contribute to glodal warming)

can't wait for exams to be over..