For nobody else, gave me a thrill - with all your faults, i love you still.
It had to be you, wonderful you, it had to be you.

i closed me eyes and thought of the days
that seemed to fly so fast
i turned my heart to face the days
with strength to carry on
cause i know it would be hard to go on
and i just want to grasp it in my all

cause i want to keep
all the memories within
all the trails i've been
just keep pushing on
and when i look up
into the heavens above
it's smiling to me and say
just keep pushing on

today's just the first day of school and my mind is giving me excuses why i should continue sleeping..
my alarm was set an hour later, the lift was too full to contain another person, i definitely missed my bus, and the first day just seem to be the start of another stressful period

there was just this mixed feelings i had last night, the mental breakdown thing..
well, it wasn't as bad for me cause i prayed and i had a worse experience before
but celeste was feeling down and empty.. the way i felt after conference and it was seriously terrible..
the feeling of emptiness and not wanting to do anything and slack around overwhelmed her as it did to me just some weeks ago..

basically, i passed the days by trying to distract myself from thinking so much so i watched the lamest tv programs, played guitar till my fingers hurt, played piano till my left hand just slipped off the keyboard, snacked alot and yeah of course, cry
and yeah, i don't want to sound like a stupid baby that cries everyday..
so i prayed..
God really helped me because i felt better as the days went by..

and as i browsing through the youth hymnal, this part of this particular hymn caught my eye
"You can whisper in a crowd to Him
You can cry when you're alone to Him
You don't have to pray out loud to Him
He knows your thoughts.."

it's really encouraging..